it's all about the plan

berhubung gue bingung ini blog mau gue isiin apa, akhirnya gue minta beberapa saran dari temen-temen gue. ada salah satu temen gue yang minta gue ngisi blog ini pake cerpen atau cerita bersambung gitu deh, gue sempet gak setuju karena gue males nulis gue mikir buat ngisi ini blog sama curhatan gue aja, tapi temen gue itu berdiri dengan gagah perkasa berkata "lo pasti bisa nulis sesuatu yang berbobot" dalam hati gue mikir. berbobot? nulis batu gitu maksudnya? *eh. gue masih bingung mau nulis apaan, cerita? cerita apa? cerita idup gue? gak ada bedanya sama curhat kalo gitu sih. gue pengen yang gak setengah-setengah. tapi apa? -_-"

costumer service??!!

gue itu bisa dibilang pecandu social network. semua account gue punya, salah satunya facebook. berawal dari kecurigaan gue sama laptop gue. laptop gue itu bisa dikategorikan abnormal. laptop gue ini bisa mati idup secara mengejutkan dan begitu mati yang kesekian kalinya screennya blank. pertama gue pikir gue gak bisa ngeakses social network gara-gara laptop gue rusak. yaudah gue bawa laptop gue ke dell centernya. setelah menghabiskan jutaan rupiah *lebay* buat sekedar ganti hardisk batere sama install ulang, laptop gue kembali normal. tapi anehnya tetep engga bisa dipake buat ngeakses social network dalam bentuk apapun. akhirnya gue telfon tuh costumer service telkom buat protes. pertama gue terhubung sama mbak-mbak kira-kira umurnya 20 something gitu lah. mbaknya baiiiik banget, cuma sayangnya itu mbak-mbak lemot naudzubillah karena gue males duluan jadi gue tutup aja telfonya. gue coba otak-atik modem sama komputernya sebisa gue. akhirnya connect! tapi belu sampe 2 menit udah engga bisa lagi. sial. akhirnya karena gue kesel gue telfon lagi tuh costumer service. kali ini gue terhubung sama mas-mas umuran 25an kayaknya. begitu bilang hallo gue udah nyangka anjir ini orangnya pasti penyabar banget ketauan dari gaya bicaranya. gataunyaaaaaa, iiiih banget deh. bayangin coba ya gue ini masih 14 taun dan dijelasin metode sesusah itu. wth?!! itu mas-mas akhirnya jadi tutor gue, pertama dia suruh gue buka comand apaaa gitu, terus pas udah dibuka tuh gue disuruh ngetik semacem kode gitu. pas nyebutin kode ini si mas-mas tadi suaranya kedengeran keciiiiil banget otomatis gue cuma bilang hah? dan si masnya marah sama gue -_-" akhirnya dia nyebutin kode-kode tadi dengan teriak-teriak terus beres ngetik ternyata gak ada reaksi apapa, gue protes lagi sama masnya. dengan nada santai dan super datar si mas tadi bilang "oh kalo gitu rumah mbak emang gak ada signalnya makanya gak pernah connect". gue bener-bener pengen ngelempar sepatu boots bokap gue waktu denger jawaban si mas tadi. wtf? gak ada signal? terus selama ini gue internetan signalnya dari mana bodoh? saking keselnya gue tutup aja tuh telfon. akhirnya sampe sekarang kalo mau ngeakses social network gue harus restart modem sama pc atau laptop gue stiap kali internetnya mulai ga connect -_-

story of us

I used to think that one day we'd tell the story of us,
And how we met
And how the sparks flew instantly
And people would say they're the lucky ones

I used to know my place was the spot next to you,
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on

Oh, a simple complication,
Miscommunications lead to a fallout,
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up, I can't break through

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

Next chapter

How did we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes
And trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me

I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should have held me

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

This is looking like a contest
Of who can act like they care less
But I liked it better when you were on my side

The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight

So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now
Now, now, now

And were not speaking,
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
'Cause were going down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

The End

for my deaaaaarest b :)

Elevator buttons and morning air
Strangers' silence makes me wanna take
the stairs
If you were here we'd laugh about their
vacant stares
But right now, my time is theirs

Seems like there's always someone who
disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about me
and you
And the verdict comes from those with
nothing else to do
The jury's out, but my choice is you

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love is ours

You never know what people have up
their sleeves
Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at
me
Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss
smiles
But I don't care, cause right now you're
mine

And you'll say don't you worry your pretty
little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love is ours

And it's not theirs to speculate
If it's wrong and your hands are tough
but they are where mine belong and
I'll fight their doubt and give you faith
with this song for you

Cause I love the gap between your teeth
And I love the riddles that you speak
And any snide remarks from my father
about your tattoos will be ignored
Cause my heart is yours

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
But they can't take what's ours
They can't take what's ours
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love is ours

violin

violin atau istilah kerennya bimola *eh, biola maksudnya hehehe. kurang lebih satu setengah bulan ini gue berusaha menekuni alat musik manja ini. kenapa gue bilang manja? lo bayangin aja, gue yang orangnya asal-asalan atau kalo nyokap gue bilang ndak apik harus bener-bener ngurusin biola dari ujung scroll sampe tail. naro biola itu gak boleh sembarangan, harus di hardcase atau ada cara khususnya. udah gitu kalo biola lo stringnya putus satu aja, lo harus beli satu set string yang harga termurahnya aja 50 ribu rupiah. bownya juga sensi banget, nilonnya suka putus kalo nari di hardcasenya gak bener, parahnya lagi kalo sampe kayu bownya patah. aduh 200 ribu lo bisa melayang tiba-tiba. pokoknya alat musik ini tuh eksklusif banget buat gue, pernah waktu itu string biola gue patah satu, otomatis gue harus beli satu set dong? gara-gara beli string itu sampe sekarang blackberry gue gak ternafkahi -_- bencong. tapi magic nih, sekali lo pegang biola lo bakal tertarik buat terus nekunin alat musik ini. tau kenapa? suara biola itu bikin hati tenang, meskipun buat newbie kayak gue kadang masih suka ngak-ngek-ngok, tapi justru itu yang bikin gue penasaran buat terus mainin biola. biola itu emang butuh modal besar buat nekuninnya apalagi kalo mau diseriusin. gue sempet mikir, desember kan bentar lagi nih, kalo gue pesen biola bach pink muda terus ada ukiran nama gue di biolanya, kira-kira apa yang bakal dilakuin nyokap sama bokap gue? hmm lemme guess ada dua kemungkinan, diusir dari rumah karena pembobolan rekening bokap, atau direbus idup-idup gara-gara pake atm cardnya mama -_-
tp seriusaaaaaaaaan!! gue cinta banget sama alat musik ini, gue pengen nekunin terus tp biola gue yang sekarang itu gak mendukung. biola gue bisa dibilang bagus, banget malah. hadiah dari bokap sama ayah (kalo orang lain nyebutnya uwa) pulang dari beijing. suaranya paling te o pe be ge te lah kalo dibanding sama yang lain, suaranya paling khas. cuma ukuran biola gue itu masih 3/4 sedangkan dengan badan se-BIG ini gue harusnya pegang biola 4/4. lo bisa bayangin dong tangan gue di fingerboard sekecil itu gak bisa bergerak bebas dan susah ngatur jarak nadanya kan -_- gue gatau kapan yang pasti SECEPETNYA gue mau ganti biola gue.

i'm back!!!

setelah sekian lama menghilang dari peradaban manusia-manusia dunia maya, finally I'M BACK!!! sekali lagi i'm spasi back. do you miss me? well i don't think so -_-
anjir gue kangen banget sama blog sampah perasaan gue yang satu ini. dengan hari berbunga-bunga gue buka laptop gue dan begitu internetnya connected langsung gue masukin urlnya tapi......begitu connect gue malah bingung sendiri mau nulis apaan. well ini blog emang bener-bener sampah. sampah perasaan gue sampah pikiran gue. but this is my blog ahahaha #radom